Hmm blogging. Here's a chance for you to get to know me. For those that know me, know I'm not one to talk a whole lot. Therefore, I have not blogged...EVER! This is me popping my cherry.
I don't tell people my feelings or what is going on my life and that has worked fine for me...until now.
Let me tell you a story, my story.
I grew up in Cobar, a small mining town in country New South Wales, Australia. My father a miner, my mother a mother. I am blessed to have such loving and hard working parents. I have an older brother, Jesse, he is 5 years above me. Later came two beautiful sisters, Michela and Stephanie.
I completed all my schooling in Cobar, Kindergarten right through to Year 12. I had dreams of joining the Army and flying helicopters. Unfortunately, I was unsuccessful. I had arthritis is my knees and hands from a young age, 22 months to be exact. My childhood consisted of school and frequent 10-hour drives to Sydney to see a specialist.
After the kick in the guts of not being able to join the Army, I had to find another career path. I did play music through school but at this stage, I couldn't see myself making a career of it.
I applied for a job at a local mine. I was successful and started a career in the mining industry. It was never something I wanted to do, but I thought I could save some money for 12 months. Being young and dumb on big money, I started to spend big. Cars, bikes, toys...I was living the good life. Met a girl, lived together..even bought her a car. Then she left, stuff knows where she is now but I do hope she is well.
12 months of mining turned into 5 years...lots of debt and not a damn thing to show for it. Finally, something good came my way. Redundancy! Golden ticket! Take this pay out and get out!
Now I'm sure a lot of people would take this as a shock if it were to happen to them.
"What do I do now?"
I took the opportunity and LEFT! Never again was I going to work on a mine site. I wanted to make music!!
I left my home and moved to Tamworth. Australias Country Music Capital. I already had a few friends in town and within a few months, I had more friends! Tamworth is the most welcoming community I've ever been apart of. I had finally found somewhere I felt I belonged. I played only a few gigs when I got to town, I wrote some great songs with a few of Australias greatest writers.
It wasn't long though until the redundancy money ran dry. I had to find more work. I had to pay my bills. I had debts from my past life eating me up...I still have!
I found a job. I met a girl. I fell in love.
Working 5 days a week and gigging 3-4 nights a week is tough. No time off. But I love it.
With financial strains holding me down, I couldn't invest in myself.
Maybe this is where I should have spoken up. To my partner, to my parents. But no, I kept it all to myself and told myself I could get through it. I was wrong, I couldn't.
My partner moved to Nashville in January 2017 to chase her dream as a songwriter. She is doing so well, I'm really proud of her. Due to my dishonesty, we couldn't maintain a long distance relationship. And right now, we aren't even talking..which is hard. But once again, my fault for not speaking up.
My pride and joy, my beautiful SS ute was repossessed midway through a gig in April, 2017. Not many people know as it is quite embarrassing. The cost of chasing a dream I guess.
Due to this financial strain, I have had to seek other work. The short hours in a casual job clearly wasn't enough. I let it go too long. Back to the mining game.
I have recently learnt some very valuable lessons and I hope you all take this from me. Be honest! Honesty is everything, even if it breaks a heart..tell the truth.
Don't bury your head in the sand! Face things front on. Learn from your mistakes. Don't hide, shine! Don't take people for granted! Because they won't be there when you need them and you will only have yourself to blame.
Now we're up to the present time in my life. I'm now sitting at home preparing for the next chapter in my life. Scared of what the future holds. Although I didn't want to work on a mine site again, I need to get myself back on my feet. Thankfully it is only a 6-month job and then I will be back. I am not giving up on this dream. I want this and I know I will get there in time.
Rome wasn't built in a day ❤